Overcoming ESRD

I shot this photo in the bank where they offer free brewed coffee. 4 years ago we operated a video gaming business a psp and xbox. We keep too many coins for change until papa was hospitalized we had to change it to pay for the bill. I remember I drove the motorbike going to the bank and my uncle was with me because I couldn’t carry the coins were too heavy.

It has been 4 years since (2013) papa was diagnosed of End Stage Renal Failure. I almost had a nervous breakdown both me and mama when the doctor said when we heard it. The amount of treatment was shocking more than the illness. Papa had to undergo dialysis three times a week and he has no health card and we had to pay it cash. We didn’t know what to do and mama wasn’t sleeping thinking how she would support papa. 
The best thing that happened to me was a year before that, in November of 2011 I started going to a Christian church and in 2012 I got born again understanding grace, understanding the lordship of Jesus, understanding the cross. I started a relationship with Jesus and began to walk with Him. God has been doing a lot of work in me that I didn’t realized there is a change happening and it is continuous… I thank God for friends praying for me during that first season. 

I didn’t realized God was preparing me for that time. God ever since until now become the source of our finances, the source of our peace, the source of our sleep, the source of our security, the source of our joy, the center of our family. We were blessed and glory to God when He makes us become also a blessing. 
The fight to health and finances is not over. It is a fight of faith that we may not forget that healing has been given to us, provision is given to us. That we should boldly proclaim in this fight that we claim it. 
It is better to have God in this season or in any season, than without Him. All I can say is that “Thank you Lord!”. God has been good eversince and remebering how good He was and still doing good things makes me cry. God never leaves us. We may feel hopeless, He is there reminding us to come to Him because He will supply the things we needed spiritually, mentally, physically, financially and so on… 

We forgot to come to Him. God is speaking in my spirit right now He said: “When you are doubting of the things I can do for you that is because you took for granted the importance of your prayer life. You happen to look for solution by yourself and you’re not looking for me. Haggai 1:5-6 Now therefore thus saith the Lord of hosts; Consider your ways. Ye have sown much, and bring in little; ye eat, but ye have not enough; ye drink, but ye are not filled with drink; ye clothe you, but there is none warm; and he that earneth wages earneth wages to put it into a bag with holes.”

In our decision making we must not separate God. 

Thank you God for reminding us, everytime we forget, you pull us closer to your side so that we may hear your leading. We put our trust in you God.

PSALM 56 (ASV): 

1Be merciful unto me, O God; For man would swallow me up: All the day long he fighting oppresseth me.

2Mine enemies would swallow me up all the day long; For they are many that fight proudly against me.

3What time I am afraid, I will put my trust in thee.

4In God (I will praise his word), In God have I put my trust, I will not be afraid; What can flesh do unto me?

5All the day long they wrest my words: All their thoughts are

against me for evil.

6They gather themselves together, they hide themselves, They mark my steps, Even as they have waited for my soul.

7Shall they escape by iniquity? In anger cast down the peoples, O God.

8Thou numberest my wanderings: Put thou my tears into thy bottle; Are they not in thy book?

9Then shall mine enemies turn back in the day that I call: This I know, that God is for me.

10In God (I will praise his word), In Jehovah (I will praise his word),

11In God have I put my trust, I will not be afraid; What can man do unto me?

12Thy vows are upon me, O God: I will render thank-offerings unto thee.

13For thou hast delivered my soul from death: Hast thou not delivered my feet from falling, That I may walk before God In the light of the living?


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